Do We Owe A Debt For Living?

Over the years, two people close to me said I should write a book. This profound encouragement was initiated due to my intense life. My supporters believe people could benefit from my experience. On August 2 or early morning on the 3rd, 2017, in my sleep, I received a message to write a book. You see, when I am sleeping, God has my total attention. Although I read my Bible almost daily, praise and talk with God, live a faithful life, when I am awake, I am constantly thinking about goals and how to organize my time. However, I do praise and talk to God throughout the day.

On August 3, 2017, I first saw the movie Razor's Edge. One of the characters in the movie got engaged to a woman with substance abuse problems. He loves her deeply and unequivocally. He loves her into sobriety. Their mutual friend got jealous and told the woman she is no good for her fiancé and she will make him miserable. Because of these cruel remarks, prior to her marriage, the woman went back to the life she led as a substance abuser. Her fiancé tries to take her away from this toxic environment again to no avail. The woman commits suicide. The now former fiancé confronts the mutual friend and shares with her that he killed someone years ago and he thought he owed a debt for killing that person. But he owed a debt for living, and his payment would have been living out his life with the woman who abused substances. I have intently pondered this proposition in the context presented in Razor's Edge, and I ask that you contemplate it with me. I am using my life experiences and beliefs to aid my analysis. This is where you, the reader, are asked to play an active role by sharing your thoughts with me.

--Glenda Smith